The Things I Carry

The physical thing that I always have to carry around is my wooden cross. I can't seem to be able to go without it, whenever I don't have it with me, I literally start freaking out, really, I start asking if anyone has seen it. I feel naked without it because I'm already used to having it around my neck wherever I go, it has a very special meaning to me because in a way it represents my believes and my family's believes, everybody in my family has one. My dreams are to be able to go out of the state for college after graduation and to be able to see the world and learn from it, its all I can think about sometimes. Its like a craving I have, and just the thought of not being able to do it causes me pain. This dreams give me guidance because I think that if I want to make this dreams come true then I need to make excellent grades, I have to give everything I have to my studies, even if I don't like it.
  The person that seem to always be with me is my mom, because she is the person that is always encouraging me to follow my dreams. It's like this, every time I fall she helps me get up, no matter what, she is always telling me to follow my heart to do what feels right. She is always telling me that if I want to get somewhere and makes my dreams come true I have to give it my hardest, no one else besides my mom do that for me. Three words that I think describe me are shy, clumsy, and average, this words that I think describe have a huge impact on my life. They are a huge impact because since I believe they are to be true I do not go out of my way to make people think otherwise, I do not try to change this, it is as if I was following a book that is telling me who to be, I don't even try to go out of my way to change this. I t is also an impact because since I am very shy sometimes I never say what really is on my mind, I rephrase everything I want to say or I just don't say anything.